What made you stop being an addict?

I know some people masturbate and they don't have the problems I went through.

I got tired of always breaking the promises I made to myself.

Is masturbation and p*rn bad?

How has your life changed for the past 10 years? Can you share your #10year challenge? Is your life better, worse, or still hopeful?

I did it in my room. I did it in my washroom. I did it in school in the washrooms.

So I'm still hanging on this lie.

Was quitting worth the effort? At least for my mental health, it's a billion times worth it.

If you believe in God, do you think God can save you from cancer?

No self esteem. No confidence. No ambition. Just dreams.

Oh, and everyday I woke up tired 😫 I never slept early too. My mental health was nothing to write home about.

I went on my favourite site and started scrolling through my favourite categories; petite girls, sleeping girls, Japanese girls, Japanese mom, Japanese wife, massage, forced, in the bus, gangb*ng, Muslim girls, ebony, student and teacher, in the classroom, curvy, African, etc

Why do certain religions consider menstruating women to be impure? Where did the concept of impurity stem from?

Just keep trying

It didn't feel great after ejaculating but hey, who cares about feelings?

So I thought had unlocked a new potential in life. I was doing it even if I don't feel the urge. I forced the urge to come by watching pornography.

If we do not know the name of the father of a child, e.g. a foundling, an illegitimate, etc., then to whom should the bin or the binti of the child's name be applied?

Around age 9 I discovered pornography through my uncle, he had left the CD in the video player in the night after enjoying himself.

RUN 🏃‍♂️ for your dear life

But how was I going to do it when everything I knew wasn't working? I didn't know

Do married men like sucking dick?

I started rubbing it and I liked how I was feeling so I kept on doing it faster and EUREKA, sperms came out of my dick.

I didn't even start counting the days because I didn't really believe I would get this far.

I always wished they would sit inappropriately or the wind would blow up their dress so I can see things.

Are you afraid of being alone?

This was February 2019.

There were times I was counting the days when I'm clean. But now I don't, because I got tired of counting and relapsing and starting all over again.

Now I know I have all the nice videos on my phone, the rest I don't have, are not nice. So I had to start watching them one after the other. Some of them were even 2 hours long but I made sure I watched every little bit of it.

How do I know if I am a bitch? I try to be a nice person but people often jokingly call me a bitch. My family calls me a bitch sometimes too.

It took me days to finish watching them. Finally I decided to go to the washroom to do The Last Fap.

I so badly wanted to f*uk a girl, yet I was so shy of girls. I never wanted to meet anyone. I always wanted to hide behind the phone and text.

Now how do you quit your addiction?

How can a hacker damage me, realistically?

All I knew was that, I couldn't masturbate without p*rn. I was first getting the urge to watch p*rn, while watching, I would now feel like masturbating.

Do I wake up everyday with lots of energy? No but that's because I have a health problem, which is a story for another day.

I knew something had to be done about my wasting existence because if nothing changes, then nothing changes.

Would you date a Muslim guy? Why/why not?

I don't know if all addictions are like this 🤔

I knew about masturbation but I didn't actually think of doing it but one day, on my bed when I was preparing to go to school I was watching pornography and something just came in mind; why don't you rob your dick with your hand?

Now I don't wait to be talked to before I respond. I talk when I think I'm supposed to.

Why is America so fucked up?

I remember I once did it in my classroom at dawn. I did it in the hospital's washrooms. I did it in the lab where I work; both daytime and midnight.

A couple of months later I started hating it and regretting after every session. Yet, I couldn't stop.

There were times I could go 3 months without watching p*rn or masturbating but somehow I always came back to it.

Do Indian guys like African girls?

But for me, I would say RUN away from it

I did it while watching my sister. I did it while touching my sister 😭 I did it while watching my landlord's daughter.

I made sure I downloaded every video that was nice for me. This took almost the whole day.

And I can also talk to them now.

Remember, if nothing changes, nothing changes.

I saw every girl or woman as a sex object including kid girls. There was no way I would look at a woman and not think of f*cking her.

And I DID IT EVERYDAY

Read that again ☝️

And these were just the act and not the mental and social problems associated with addiction.

The harder I tried, the worse it became. I could get angry with myself and go about 3 days without it but when I relapse, I can do 3 in a day. And the subsequent days; it's just me getting drowned in the rabbit hole.

So all I had to do was to find a way to trick my dirty brain to think that p*rn isn't nice.

I just finished watching the best of the best p*rn videos on the planet. Now there's nothing else to look for on p*rn sites again.

I went there early in the morning trying to watch a movie and I found the CD inside the video player so I decided to watch what was on it and that was the beginning of the life I never wanted.

Have I stopped seeing girls as sex objects? Not entirely, I still want to f*ck some of them.

I remember sitting on the bed and smiling and that was when it hit me that I have successfully masturbated.

I did it in my administrator's office.

Am I totally free? I don't know 😕

I secretly kept on watching and watching until I got 19. At this time, I had started feeling the urge to ejaculate as I was watching the pornography.

Now I have the mental fortitude to face life's every day battles.